ADOPTION
In May of 2008, Angie and I recieved news we never expected to hear. We found out after about a year of vaious tests, that short of a miracle of Biblical proportions, we would not be able to have children biologically. Honestly, it kind of shut us down. We didn’t really know how to take it, but we worked through it together, with the help of our tremendous families, and the help and prayers of our RIDICULOUSLY AWESOME church community. Fast forward a few months and we began the adoption process.
In September of 2008, a friend and I were sitting at a Borders sipping iced coffees on a surprisingly warm fall day. He said something to me that has changed something in me and has made this adoption even more special to me than it was already becoming. He said, “There’s a connection to GOD that adopted parents understand that people that can have children don’t fully grasp. Sure, they’d do anything for their kids, but adoptive parents get to say, ‘I CHOSE YOU’ to their kids.” It FLOORED me. I fought the tears as much as I could as we spent the next hour or so talking music and books. But, something in me changed that day…
Everyday, I think about the kids we’ll have. We’re choosing to have them in our home. We’re choosing to love them. Just like GOD chooses to love us.
Everyday, that statement runs through my head. “… you get to say, I CHOSE YOU.” That’s what GOD says to me. That’s what I NEED to hear… what I NEED TO KNOW. I’m nobody special. I’m not famous. I can’t sing like BONO or paint like Van Gogh. I don’t get it right most of the time. I’m a hot-headed, overly emotional, mutt of a bloodline, doesn’t shave as often as his wife wants guy that just needs to hear GOD say, “I CHOSE YOU.” I need to be adopted. We all need adoption.
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On May 6, 2009 our son came. Isaac James was born 5.5 weeks early and is resided in the NICU about 3 hours from where we live. Angie and I were blessed with wonderful friends whose parents have opened up their guest living area to us for as long as we need. We were with him as much as possible and cherish every minute we hold him. He’s now growing like a weed and starting to show his personality. He knows how to make us laugh… and enjoys it himself. He’s an extremely happy baby. We really could not have asked for a better little boy or a better adoption situation.
“GOD, don’t let me ever take him for granted…”
It’s a wild ride! If anyone ever wants to talk about it, I am (we are) always available.
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We’re documenting Isaac’s first year day by day.
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